Resting, observing, watching everyone from a higher place.
I blend in with my surroundings, I become one with it. I am comfortable and free in the cold night sky, hidden among the trees. My feathers keep me warm.
I find peace and freedom in solitude, I hear and see all.
The pale yellow moon is my light, illuminating the fields. Even without her, I see with perfect vision.
I see a slight movement, I can hear your tiny heart beating fast, nervous, anxious, afraid.
I am Death and I coming down on you swiftly.
My wingspan is majestic and my talons are sharp.
You won’t feel a thing.
You will die only to live again and again.
You will remember bits and pieces of a violent past, you will be drawn to certain things without fully knowing why.
You will remember. And when it all starts to make sense,
you will die again.
And will be reborn into another finite body.
The infinite cycle continues.
To will, to dare, to dream, to want…
but don’t expect it to arrive exactly in the way you imagined.
Wanting without expecting it to be a certain way certainly feels like a balancing act; want it too much and you become obsessed, want it too little but then nothing happens. That’s why they call spirituality a practice – something you have to constantly work on. The non-attachment part can get tricky.
There’s lots of things I should be doing for Metaphysical Vibes to achieve certain results but haven’t quite gotten around to doing, like YouTube videos. I’m also supposed to be blogging a lot more too; actually I’m supposed to be creating LOTS of content on a consistent basis. Not sure if I can do it all though. Some days I feel like I should be posting more on Instagram or do an auction or a sale like everybody else yadda yadda…
But it all seems exhausting. Most of the time I just end up doing nothing and I’m totally fine with that.
But I guess I am doing something, I’m typing my thoughts here and practicing my writing. And I’ve been playing with the image above.
So I have resolved to not compete with anyone and just go at my own pace, that’s what I’m doing.
Reminding myself that I’m not everybody else so why do I feel the need to do what everyone else is doing?
Success is different for everybody, and I feel that I am already successful. Now I just have to step it up and see how far I can go with the resources I have.
I feel pretty grateful that I’ve gotten this far and I know it can only get better from here.
Why let other people know about what you’re doing so they can copy it?
I share my thoughts (not every single thing) on growing a small business so I can look back on it and see my own progress, so I can learn from my mistakes.
I share it with everyone who is searching for answers, as I am doing the same exact thing by searching online. Perhaps what I write here will be useful to someone else, as I’m just paying it forward. I also believe that no one’s success is diminished just because someone shared supposed industry secrets that others before me have already shared. We’re all learning everyday. Besides – I’m not the first one to do so and I won’t be the last; it just so happens to be from my personal perspective.
There’s lot of free information out there on the world wide web, you just have to search for it.
Also, there’s a niche for spiritually minded but weird business people – though making money is the common goal, we are also motivated by different factors. If you follow/subscribe to Carolyn Elliott’s newsletter (badwitch.es) – she writes about this kind of stuff perfectly; I love it.
Here’s some of the things I have searched for; and as silly as they sound – other people genuinely seek answers to these same questions like:
How do I get more real followers on Instagram?
Which social media platform should I focus on?
How often should you offer discounts?
What to do when sales slow down on Etsy?
Why do people undercut their prices?
Is it better to leave “sold out” products on the website or hide them?
I will add more to this when I get a chance.
As far as copying goes, I’ve spent a lonnnng fucking time being frustrated about people who copy. It actually hindered me from doing any kind of creating. I’ve come to the conclusion that you just have to keep going and let the public decide; keep putting out good content that’s true to yourself and people will eventually see you.
Random personal/small business update:
The more I work with crystals, the less I want to talk. I’ve not said a word on my personal Instagram or Twitter and I almost want to delete both of them. It seems as if I have nothing to say. I’ve also been watching less TV and am ready to cut off cable; I haven’t even watched Stranger Things Season 2.
I’m becoming more quiet and antisocial, except with the people I already know. Not wanting to be around basic people, talking about basic shit. It seems as if the crystals don’t want me to taint my energy either; it doesn’t mean I’m better than anyone, I just don’t want to talk about those things. If you don’t want to talk about those things, that also means you don’t want to be around those same people who talk about those things.
I’m also starting to sound like a fucking crazy person, talking about crystals and how they “talk” to me. FYI they don’t talk to me, at least not in the way that you and I would think; it’s more of a subtle, psychic impression that almost sounds like it’s coming from me but it’s not. And if you let your mind overthink you might just miss it.
Which brings me to the next point: I’m losing my mind and I couldn’t be happier. My mind has taken a back seat and I’m alright with that. I feel less judge-y and opinionated about people and things, including myself…ESPECIALLY myself. I just don’t care anymore.
The past version of me would probably be feeling nervous, anxious, afraid that I’ve spent a lot of money to fill up the crystal shop. But surprisingly, I don’t. This must be some kind of test to see where I’m at with the spiritual work I’m doing while simultaneously building the business.
I really don’t know if I’m doing the right thing at all, but it doesn’t feel wrong either. I trust that everything will work out if I remain consistent and not quit before reaching my first year.
The business of selling crystals is actually quite competitive; and while it is competitive, it’s also a good indication that business is going great – that there’s an actual market for it.
And that’s all I have to say. The world is evolving; a lot of women are speaking out about rape culture and inappropriate sexual behavior, the patriarchy is crashing down, a lot of people are realizing that there is more than meets the physical eye.
If you are interested in checking out my crystal shop, visit Metaphysical Vibes.
Thanks to everyone who is visiting this little blog of mine, I hope it’s helping you in some way.🖤
So sales have slowed down and I’m slightly frustrated by it. I guess I got spoiled when everything ramped up in the last couple of months. But I suppose this gives me time to reflect and be thankful for my accomplishments.
On October 22nd, 2017 I reached my 6 month mark being in business.
What are the pros and cons of having a small business? I will tell you from my perspective:
Pro #1: I really enjoy learning about the crystals as well as looking for crystals and stones to add to the shop.
Con #1: You WILL be spending money. There’s really no way around it.
Pro #2: I get to design/create/market things my way.
Con #2: You WILL be spending A WHOLE LOT of money.
There’s more but I will stop right there.
I didn’t take out a loan either, I was using my own savings and putting everything on a credit card and paying it back in huge amounts. But something happened recently where a family member borrowed a huge chunk of money and now I have no idea if it will be paid back. That’s a whole lot of uncertainty right there. So now I’m trying to figure out how to keep the business going while spending less? In other words, how to make my money last.
So that’s where I’m at currently. I knew from the getgo that this would be challenging and a different experience for me and I’m not about to give up right before I reach my first year. I know lots of small businesses fail and I don’t want to be one of them.
This is not a cry for help by the way. I’m just putting my thoughts down. I know everything will be fine, I just have to stay motivated, especially when it slows down.
I guess I would be freaking out if I didn’t have a job.
Drawing from last week. As much as I enjoy posting crystals, I still very much enjoy drawing although it’s a lot more sporadic these days. It’s one of the few things that can still draw out the creativity in me, and it’s usually quite unexpected.
I can see the reflection of my inner world when I draw. And lately, it’s been roses and eyes; or should I say one specific eye – the third eye – the eye of psychic and intuitive vision.
Roses and eyes are occult symbols, and if you know me then you know I love all things occult.
I also feel as if I need more rose tattoos as I actually don’t have a whole lot.
Perhaps when I did the candle magic / crystal grid a couple weeks ago on the full moon, the energy of Venus is still doing its work – giving me the time to appreciate the beauty of all things, like roses.
If you’re reading this, I hope you are experiencing some of your own magic. I definitely am, as 2017 has been very good to me. Very thankful for it all.