Some may or may not know that I used to be a graffiti artist, I rarely mention it now. But I was going through my files when I stumbled upon this piece that I painted in 2011. And looking back at it now, I actually like this piece a lot, especially the color combo and the diamond in the middle.
Believing in something or believing in absolutely nothing.
It’s a 50/50 chance.
Being right or being wrong, it’s a 50/50 chance.
The crystals & stones may or may not have any healing properties at all. It really was just you all along, healing yourself. It’s a 50/50 chance.
Astrologers versus astronomers.
Metaphysicians versus scientists.
Meat eaters versus vegans.
Round Earth vs Flat Earth.
It’s a 50/50 chance.
It’s hard to say who’s right and who’s wrong these days. I feel as if I’ve been oscillating between my own beliefs and then questioning them lately.
Even Flat Earthers can be convincing. So just pick something and stick with it. Believe in all your heart and soul that it’s right and true for YOU at this moment. Don’t worry about everyone else and don’t let anyone shame you for it either.
Of course you are allowed to change your mind.
So many people want to give you advice and tell you what to do. It can be overwhelming and irritating especially when you didn’t fucking ask.
If none of it makes sense anymore, then just pick yourself. Be an expert on you. Take advice from your Self, as it always knows what to do next. Even when you get a tarot reading from somebody else and they tell you what they see from the cards, deep down you already kinda know what’s going on with you, right?
You know who you are, and I know who I am.
I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free.
I better write this down before I forget:
Do you know how humans work the internet for their purposes?
You have multiple social media accounts – one for each version of yourself; one for personal, one for work or business or a side project; one to lurk on other people, one for your pet, etc.
But you are still the same person operating those different accounts. Same with a business that has multiple DBAs (Doing Business As)
On a universal scale, it is the same with Source. Source has so many ♾ infinite ♾ versions of Itself, but it is still the same Source.
As above, so below. As within, so without.
Also sidenote: I’m losing interest in working with regular Tarot cards, particularly Rider Waite. I want Tarot cards that have no people in it. Especially since ethnicity & diversity are lacking in a lot of these decks. If anything, I’d rather work with symbols, planets, nature, sacred geometry.
A lot of things are becoming outdated.
The above image is my light language codes.
It’s getting harder to explain what I’ve been thinking about these days, as I’m starting to sound crazier. But at the same time, I don’t care and apparently I’m really fascinated by this stuff. I’m an only child so I’ve never felt lonely or isolated, even when I wasn’t all “spiritual and shit”. I’ve always been able to amuse and entertain myself.
What does loneliness have to do with this? Often times, these subjects tend to be isolating – it’s ‘too out there’ for some; it also triggers people and their beliefs so you end up with fewer amounts of people that you can discuss this with. You’ll probably lose friends too. Oh well, I guess.
For me I know it’s just another upgrade in consciousness and it’s happening a lot faster now.
I wrote about my faith being restored in Reiki recently…but guess what? My [higher] self has led me yet again away from it.
You’re probably wondering, how so?
Well it pretty much boils down to this: anything that requires you to be initiated to a source outside of yourself is false light.
Anything that has a hierarchy is false light. For example: you have to go see a Reiki master to increase your healing abilities in levels. You also have to keep visiting a Reiki healer for multiple treatments: you receive a healing session for pain (emotional or physical), but then it comes back and you have to go again. It starts creating a codependency.
It is the same thing when groups of people start giving their power away to a spiritual guru, believing that only this guru has all the answers to their problems. Again, false light.
Do you see what I’m getting at here? It’s a lot harder to recognize because it masks itself so very well, so well that even you, your friends and family will fall into deception and might even fight with you about it. So don’t beat yourself up over it, we’ve all been fooled.
I would like to thank Danielle (@theresonantwitch) for this eye-opening truth bomb, she did a 3-hour live talk with another person on IG and it literally blew my mind and probably opened up another chakra or two. She also assisted me with activating my Light Language codes.
You don’t need ascended masters and spirit guides for spiritual guidance. These beings could be posing as other entities – negative ETs, reptilians, dark forces who control the holographic matrix we exist in, how can you be 100% sure who you’re calling upon?
You also don’t have to follow what everyone else is doing. You already are Light. Call upon and begin embodying your higher Self and you’ll start to remember who you are. If our thoughts create our reality, then that’s where you can start.
I’m not knocking Reiki down, I’ve actually benefitted from self Reiki a lot. It also helped me with my business. But I probably won’t be using it anymore.
So why go see a healer then? Definitely go see a healer when your personal needs call for it, as we’re all at different levels of ascension. But also, learn to trust your own inner guidance. From personal experience, a true healer will not enable you to keep coming back to them for healings. If anything, a true healer will empower you to want to heal yourself.
Sidenote: every time I see those oracle cards with Ascended Masters on them, I immediately think false light. I personally have never been able to connect with them.
It brings me so much joy and pleasure to witness someone experience a healing of some sort, even more so when I don’t have any expectations of the outcome. Energy work is real and I am so thankful to have the perfect clients, I look forward to having more of these experiences in 2019. I am memorizing this blissful feeling and encoding it into my DNA. Or perhaps I have always known how to do this in a past life perhaps (a client mentioned this to me before), I had just forgotten and am barely remembering it now in this life.
Of course it hurts me to see people in pain; a part of me wants to cry along with them but at the same time I get to learn how to help them transmute this pain, which simply is energy.
This time around, the person receiving the healing and myself saw colors. We literally saw the same colors – pinks & reds – when I was chelating around her heart chakra.
On Saturday, I also activated my Light Language codes. Oddly enough I had been drawing these symbols repetitively for the last few months long before I even knew what LL was, not realizing that these would be MY codes. How wonderful and so very synchronistic.
I was also able to activate verbal, written & movement LL codes, which surprised me even more because I was not expecting it, especially the verbal part.
Anyways, I am pretty excited about where my life is headed right now. I still don’t know what direction I’m going in anymore, but as long as I follow my true interests, my intuition will guide me.
For crystal healing/therapy sessions, visit me at Crystal Healer LA.
I realize that this blog of mine is sloppy as fuck. It’s a mess for sure but at the same time, I really don’t care. This is my personal art blog, this is where I get to truly express myself and say all that I want to say. I don’t get to do that on my other sites. Though I’ve put up artwork for sale on here, I’ve really not tried to monetize this.
Actually, I did try to use AdSense once but my site wasn’t good enough for Google. Oh well.
So if you’re visiting this site – yes, I’ve redirected SHERMGRAFIK.com to here. Sherm is long gone, it was an old graffiti identity.
What’s going on with me these days? I honestly don’t know. I’ve been in this neutral zone. I want to learn and do so many things that I tend to get pulled into different directions, thinking that I can do it all. Part of me wishes to know what my purpose is but I think I’m going to drive myself insane if I keep asking. It’s almost as if I’m not satisfied with the answers, as if my life purpose is supposed to be profound and exotic.
I think in some ways, I’m just supposed to be me.
I drew this today (Monday, November 5 2018).
I’m here, trying to just be and go with the flow. I once saw someone on Twitter tweet this out: “only dead fish go with the flow”.
So as usual, I’m conflicted.
Like, how do we just go with the flow if we are conscious beings, when we’re wired a certain way. It really takes effort to reprogram our minds and to find balance between wanting stuff to happen already versus allowing it to come to you.
I want so many things, but mostly I want to learn everything that fascinates me.
Right now I have a list of things I want to learn or make my way towards:
Holistic Life Coach
Quantum Healing Hypnosis
I’ve also been considering going into Massage Therapy but then again I’m not sure whether I’m ready to touch people…I’m still thinking about it though.
I don’t know. I want to focus on one thing and get really good at it. But it also feels like I need to do other things too. Why? Selling minerals is cool but tbh, I’m already losing interest in it. Perhaps I was a bit naive in thinking that I was always going to make consistent sales, but not only that – selling gets boring after a while. I feel that I also made some poor decisions and spent more than I made. Lesson learned, I guess.
My intuition is leading me to a consciousness upgrade, it seems. It wants me to learn all this stuff that I’ve never even considered wanting to get into.
So here I am again, wondering where my life is going next. I honestly don’t know anymore. This is what wanted to come out today while drawing.
I’m typing this before I forget. I woke up with a bad headache on the right side of my head. It was probably because I ate too much salty chips with hummus…then an hour later I had cheezy poofs the night before and didn’t actually eat dinner. I probably didn’t drink a whole lot of water either. It happens.
So I put Selenite on the the side of my head where the pain was and that sort of helped. Blue Calcite worked even better but the headache came back again in waves. I should also mention that my husband told me to drink Gatorade because I needed electrolytes so I did that. And some water of course.
While all of the above helped, my headache was still there, lingering.
So I called upon my true Reiki masters & guides to assist me with removing this headache, got into a quiet, expansive, meditative state and put my hands on the sides of my head for a few minutes.
Needless to say, it worked; my headache subsided and my faith in Reiki has been restored, the Usui method. Also, my husband got us breakfast. I’m thankful.
For the past week I was having serious doubts about my Reiki practice after having learned that a false light agenda existed and has been infiltrating through the various Reiki symbols. So I had to search out some answers to my own questions. If you are open minded and want to get weird, please read my previous blog post: Reiki and Reptilians
Reflecting back on it now, setting up the crystal shop was easy; selling something that is tangible and beautiful is quite easy.
Marketing & selling a service on the other hand, is a bit more challenging; people can’t see it, it’s not tangible like a crystal or a stone. But it’s still doable.
I trust myself, I trust that I can make this work.
Everything takes times to grow, the hardest part is being patient especially when you’re planting a seed. Seeds grow in the dark, you can’t see what’s happening but you must tend to it, you must believe that it will grow.
This is what I’m doing right now with my latest project, Crystal Healer LA; just experimenting with it and seeing where it goes. I expect it to be another source of income, and I expect to receive awesome clients from it. I expect that I am going to be in service to others in a way that makes me happy.
I definitely did not foresee that I would take the path of the healer. But really, I’m just following my inner guidance and it feels right.
My mindset is definitely different from last year, I was more driven & motivated. This time I’m more about just learning, experimenting and enjoying the experience.
I usually create content for every blog post, but I don’t know what to post this time around. I was digging through my internet files and stumbled on this surreal, occult work of art by Felix Labisse.
While driving to work I was holding this Garnet Soapstone (available for purchase) in the photo and got a surge of energy flow through me and my eyes welled up a little…I thought about blood, bloodshed and sacrifice.
In my mind’s eye I got a flash of witches being accused and persecuted. Perhaps these were just mental pictures from witch-related movies I’ve seen, I wasn’t sure. But it was enough to make me feel something and to write this down.
In terms of sacrifice, often times we think about veterans who were in the war, but what about the thousands of innocent witches, healers who were burned at the stakes…
What about the countless women who were raped past, present and future…
It was brought to my awareness recently that James Marion Sims, the father of modern Gynecology, owned black slave women and cut them up without anesthesia in order to study and learn about our reproductive organs.
The history of mankind is gruesome and it was the women who usually suffered the most.
They all sacrificed themselves to have what we have today.
All these women live through me and they exist as little druzy sparkles in this Garnet Soapstone. Garnet is all about strength and security. I am you, you are me, we are One. Now whenever I look at Almandine Garnets I will always think about all the blood that has been shed and seeped through the earth to create such a beautiful stone.
I cursed myself often, often wishing I was a man instead. They always seemed to get away with doing things. It took some time to love my body and accept myself as a woman.
I used to be angry that my period would inconvenience me, it’s actually happening right now and I think it’s perfect for writing this post.❤️