I often write about wanting things, becoming something, attaining some kind of goal, always wanting more, or wanting less, never satisfied with what actually Is…
It’s not luck at all, but call me lucky.
Lucky because I can put some of my uniqueness into the graphics I create for work.
Lucky because it’s a quiet atmosphere.
Lucky because I am alone for hours, with space to create and generate ideas.
Lucky because I got this far in life and I didn’t even have to get a college degree or drown in massive amounts of debt.
Lucky because I have the ability to keep on learning.
Lucky because I get to experience life in a human body.
I can stare at this all day. Kinda like a lava lamp, but not really.
Our thoughts / opinions about how we live life tend to change quickly, and a lot more often these days it seems.
For example, last year I swore I wanted to buy a house. I really wanted to do it, I was reading up on a bunch of stuff related to buying a house – the homebuying process, mortgages, costs, etc. I even had some money saved along with some other monies that came my way so somehow, it felt like I was in the perfect position to become an actual homeowner. My mom always used to insist that being a homeowner was the best thing you could do for yourself. Especially since my credit is excellent.
10 years ago today (12/20/2006), my mom left her physical body and returned to Spirit.
10 years later, I’m still here. I made it through the pain & suffering of not having my mom around anymore.
2006 and 4-5 years after that really felt like the hardest time of my life, but I can look back and say that it transformed me into who I am now, and who I am becoming. I mentioned this in another blog post and I will repeat it again: death is certainly the most painful of all teachers, yet at the same time it can also be life changing and transformative.