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Not-so-random thoughts + musings:
Created a shop page in case anyone wants to buy any of my old stuff…it’s a work in progress for now.
9/1/26: I’ve been saying this for some time now but wouldn’t it be great if “likes” on your posts on Instagram equated to actual money? At least on TikTok you can receive gifts that turn diamonds into cash, right? Maybe I should try going live on TikTok but for what though? I have lost interest in building my avatar yet again. Ughhh, I don’t feel nervous going live it’s just that I know my audience is a mixed bag over there; I’m probably receiving fake engagement too and I’ve been putting in nothing but low effort…I guess we’ll see, this might just be another ramble.
Also idek why I’m thinking about monetizing anything on there or any social media for that matter, it all seems too saturated. Also Idk who’s real, AI or an inactive account that was bought. I think part of me always wants to see if I can do it WHILE working a fulltime job? Can I monetize something other than the adult niche with me as the product? Lol, I don’t know. And of course, I’m always thinking of these as a backup plan even though I never get very far; with the way things are going you just never know when you’re not going to have a job anymore is how I always feel (my Chiron in Taurus wound).
Everything’s the same, everything’s different…
8/13/26: Must be an auspicious day…saw $SPY trading at $777.99 and $777.88
8/12/26: I love how I can get suspended on Facebook AND Instagram for posting SFW (safe for work) content when everyone else gets to post half naked lewds. I give up.
The upcoming Solar Eclipse on Aug 12 may or may not affect you personally. Lots of people are always saying something about this kind of stuff. If you get overwhelmed by the amount of things people are saying online, it’s best to listen to your body, mind, soul and spirit and see what it’s actually communicating to you. Also new moon in Leo that same day, great time to focus on your creative endeavors.
Study your enemy, study their patterns. Know thyself. Prepare for civil war. Expect the unexpected. Learn to be uncomfortable, learn to live with less. If you woke up to live another day, there is still something for you to accomplish in this life, keep going. But also, rest. Life is a marathon, not a race. Pluto in Aquarius.
Saturday 7/25/26: I still want to make a vtube character of myself so bad…sometimes I wish I didn’t have a phone so I can just stop scrolling and start making it. But hey it’s Leo season so there’s a good chance that I’m motivated enough to finally start. Wish me luck.
Wed 7/22/26: Happy Leo season! May you feel the creative fire surging within. One of my best friends was a Leo – she was beautiful, artistic, funny, magnetic and so generous. A mama bear and a lioness. If you are reading this, I am sending you love, creative and healing energy today; may you receive whatever you need. So mote it be.
Thursday 7/16/26: Moon conjunction natal Saturn – the urge to disappear and never be seen again is overwhelming today. Just a few more hours until this transit passes…
Wed 7/15/26: just testing out this animated flying money emoji gif I just made using Photoshop & After Effects. I was going to make a hypnotic emoji graphic on my favorite, powerful emoji symbols but got sidetracked and made this instead. It was supposed to be: money tiger money tiger money tiger money tiger. Maybe I’ll add planet Jupiter (luck, faith, expansion). Since tomorrow is Jupiter day (Thursday), I felt called to align my gif graphics with some money magick. Feel free to steal this.
Tuesday 7/14/26 – it’s a new moon in Cancer but we’re also in a Mercury retrograde in Cancer. I should be freaking out that we’re in a war again and there’s diarrhea lettuce going around but I feel good in my body and oddly calm inspite of all the breaking news on Twitter that I really need to step away from. The only thing I want is for people I care about to have what they need. I wish for all beings to have what they need that is in alignment with who they are. If you don’t know who you are yet then keep exploring. So, if you’re reading this I wish for you to have what you need. May all your deepest dreams and desires come true<3
Oh but here’s something that’s been on my mind lately – I kinda want to experience more physical pain not because I’m sadistic (I really don’t like pain) but because I want to be immune to it. Pain tolerance training, like going to the dentist for regular cleanings or getting tattooed for hours (I’ve done both).
Can an old dog learn new tricks is the question…
Monday 7/6/26 – Well that was short lived; I’m better off here, I think. I can’t hear myself on Twitter, my voice gets drowned out by everyone else. I was trying to separate my art & graphics work from the other stuff I do.
Looking at my horoscope, it was definitely Sun trine natal Uranus:
this transit affects your urge for freedom and spontaneity. Feelings of restlessness may come up for you over these few days. You are more conscious of your urge for freedom and your need to find your own individual expression of yourself. You may also have new spiritual insights and your will to be different may feel more powerful during this brief period of time.
Sunday 7/5/26 – I’m feeling the urge to get back on Twitter under @savethesavages – my old account got suspended in 2020 for something I can’t even remember so I will be going under the same handle but slightly different. Stay tuned, it’s an experiment…
Ngl, I still feel triggered when I see someone copying my work. But then I remember that I copied someone else and that person copied someone else and so forth and so forth. The truth is – we’re all going to copy someone at some point or another…it’s just how we learn and eventually develop our style. The unique part is in the expression and interpretation of that work.
Sometimes we’re inspired and other times we’re straight out copying someone else’s work. This is the hard part no one tells you about and I have no solution for it either, you’ll just have to create it and see where it goes. If you want to take it further, then look into copyrighting your art and trademark your logos. Google: do i copyright or trademark my art
You’re going to spend the majority of your life figuring out who you are. Music, movies, games, art, science, philosophy, the internet, pop culture, subcultures, people, places and life experiences will take part in shaping you. If you don’t know who you are yet then just say “I’m figuring it out as I go”. Creating a bunch of empty social media accounts just to watch me is not it though, just saying. Create something of substance even if you think it’s not good. Keep going, keep practicing. If you’re feeling lost, follow whatever interests you. Study it, dissect it, write about it, copy or rebuild it. If you’re a beginner, it’s okay to copy. Give credit to the person you copied before they find out so it’s less drama for you. But once you have developed your own style, then it’s time to push your creativity so you can birth something original.
I believe in you, you are talented and have so much potential. Good luck.
Breaking up the space with an old gif I made: 
The world is shit but find something to be grateful for okay? ;P
I saw this somewhere and it may not be the exact wording but here goes:
If you’re feeling shame and guilt for not caring about EVERY SINGLE ISSUE that’s happening in the world, do not despair. That’s why there’s 8.3 billion people on planet earth. Not everyone has the capacity to care and help everyone all the time. If you do want to help, then help yourself first; get to a place in your life where you are able to help someone with your resources.
Another one I saw that I remembered:
If you feel helpless regarding the problems of this world, start small by helping your family and friends, then your local community, then your city, then your state. And go from there.
Wed 6/24/26 – The internet world is loud, noisy and everyone wants to be heard. I’m glad I have this blog to escape and hear my own thoughts.
I love being an adult but I also hate being an adult.
You are the director and the actor of your own life. You are also the observer. What to do with this information? Have patience with your self, learn from your mistakes. Only the passage of time will allow it all to make sense. In the meantime, enjoy discovering who you really are and the unfolding of your life.
Really needed to hear this today because when you become an adult with bills to pay, everything is usually about money and we stop experimenting:
The Universe said: if you have an anxious soul, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Take the chance just to see where it leads. Anxiety feeds on importance. Stop treating every step like it’s the final test. 🔮✨ @TheOracleReadsU
Thursday June 11, 2026 11:03am – just remember this, you are not your thoughts. Repeat this to yourself: everything is always working out for my best and highest good, and so it is.
Thursday June 11, 2026 4:50am – today I woke up wishing for death to take me but at the same time – who will care for my precious cat friends? These Saturn transits are making my thoughts extra heavy lately and it’s gonna be like this for a few months.
Then throw Uranus in the mix and you’ll be thinking about things you never thought about and questioning your life decisions…just breathe and get through the day, Pia.
Lost in the labyrinth of my design…when will you find your way out? Or do my words and visuals soothe your fast & overthinking mind after all this time?
However you perceive me – at any given day I could be the angel or the devil in your life, or both.
Monday 6/01/26
I have been slowly trying to break away from Adobe since last year, but of course they managed to reel me back in with a lower priced subscription. Also, my iMac 2020 won’t accept a lot of the open source apps I was trying to use. FML
As soon as you are born into this world, you are slowly marching towards your eventual demise.
Every day that passes moves you closer to your future. I hope you are saving and investing as something is better than nothing.
People on social media who are now older and wiser will try to tell you what they would do differently if they were younger and had to start from scratch. I don’t agree with that because you only know what you know at that age and in that circumstance specific to you. If I were young again, I’d probably do the same exact thing.
Tuesday 5/26/26
Watching movies filmed in LA or California at the theatre or even after a mindblowing episode on TV has been hitting different lately; everytime I see a long list of credits it gives me happy, hopeful feelings inside or even watching how they created that scene knowing a lot of people were involved – it means the film industry is still putting people to work! I know it isn’t what it used to be but still…especially when SAG-AFTRA is involved.
Your pain, your hurt, your frustration, your darkness, your observations on life and society – use that as fuel for your creativity. It is how art in all forms is born.
If you are reading this, it means you are alive. You are breathing, seeing, hearing, feeling, talking. Take a deep breath in through your nose – hold for a few seconds – then exhale through your mouth and say “all is well”.
Wednesday May 13, 2026 | Just some word vomit as I have nowhere else to put this but here; these last few days I’ve been going through so many hurdles just to do simple text updates and adding a page with lots of text for a project built in React/Next JS; I learned how to use the terminal more, I learned some React markdown, I connected my GitHub account to backup the project which I haven’t used since I took WebDev in 2014…it was a lot of troubleshooting and connecting and now watch me forget all this shit I’ve learned because I’m sure I won’t touch it unless there’s a change to the site. Maybe I’ll try to rebuild the project just to learn but I am MENTALLY exhausted. OMFG, I need a massage and to not look at the computer screen for at least 24 hours but thank you Gemini for guiding me through it because I would’ve banged my head against the table or pulled my hair out for EVERY.SINGLE.ERROR I fcking encountered…
But I got the changes done and that’s all that matters.
It was nice knowing you in that very moment in space and time…maybe we’ll meet again in another life, in a different timeline.
Is it better to be used…or to be useless?
Sunday May 10, 2026 | some quotes I can currently relate to, found on X / Twitter:
People don’t realize that you can actually push someone so far that they no longer want anything to do with you anymore. This applies to friendships, relationships, or even family. Sometimes, people assume that because you love them, whether as a friend, partner, or family member you will continue to tolerate anything, disrespect, neglect, hurtful actions, lack of effort, or emotional stress.
Everyone has limits, and there is only so much one person can take before they choose peace over connection.
Even the most patient, kind-hearted person can reach their breaking point. When someone continuously feels unappreciated, misunderstood, or mistreated, they can reach a place where they emotionally disconnect. And once someone emotionally disconnects, it is very hard to repair that relationship.
LLONER 🦅🪐
@eyojoel77
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You can’t manipulate someone who enjoys solitude. They’re not afraid to walk away. That’s their strength.
Overmind
@overmind01
@TheOracleReadsU
Every moment is fleeting and nothing lasts forever. All we have are memories – the most beautiful, the most intoxicating and the most painful moments – all rolled into one.
Protect your energy, online and offline. There are thieves and compulsive liars everywhere. Yes, everyone is wearing a mask, including me. I may withhold information within reason but at least I don’t lie. Liars are the worst because they can never stop lying to the point where it becomes a bad habit. Because they can never tell the truth, you can never trust or believe anything they say anymore. It’s better to stay away from them.🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿👁️🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿
Slow down. Breathe. Meditate. Read books. Learn to write your thoughts down with a pen on paper. Draw, doodle, scribble, journal. Take notes. Write shit down. What do you want to manifest today? Try not to rely on AI for this practice.
Spiritual but not religious. Know the difference…
If you wake up another day, take a deep breath in and ask yourself “what will I experience today?” and breathe out. Love yourself.
Life is short, life is long…and before you know it, it’s over. Tell people you love them before it’s too late, or that at least you cared about them in your own weird little way. Or not. Do whatever you want as long as it doesn’t harm someone else.
Monday 4/27/26:
I think it’s time to move on from my online sex work persona, Idk what I’m going to do next though. All I know is right now, I’d much rather trade stocks, draw and post