Something about being in Leo season that’s making me determined as fuck.
I’m feeling a surge of energy from the sun.
In comparison to Cancer season, I feel a lot more stable and have clarity on what I need to do next…sort of.
Cancer season was turning me into a emotional wreck for no reason. I almost felt like a victim? A victim of my own fucking mind when it turns on me and starts to get me to think in limited ways.
I drive myself crazy sometimes. I feel alone on this because I feel like it’s up to me to keep up with finances, to figure out how to bring in more money. I feel like I’m the only one who invests in myself.
Right now I have investments and entrepreneurship on my mind. I think at this point I will have to create my own damn job; I keep looking on CL for something else but none of them appeal to me at all. The stuff that used to interest me no longer does.
Not only that but the deeper I go into metaphysical stuff, the less I can relate to the three-dimensional world.
At this point I really don’t want to work for anyone else but myself. How do I parlay this?
And is this a sign? It must be because it’s all I’ve been thinking about.
The Fool (0) has been showing up a few times now. This card usually never shows up, unless it’s time for me to dive into the unknown again.
And 8 of Swords is the card that tends to remind me of the so called “prison” that I created.
I have a few ideas (some are risky while most are just past my comfort zone) but at the moment I can’t think of anything else:
+ Pull out money from my 401k account, quit my job and live off of that while I bring up my small business.
+ Live a lean & frugal lifestyle. Downgrade to a smaller place (might have to be an apartment, meh) and cut out the cable and other stuff so I can have less expenses.
+ Move closer to my work so I don’t have to drive my car & spend so much money on gas and car repairs; I can just walk.
These are just ideas that have been running through my head these last couple of months. All I know is, something has to change. If this is my dream, then surely I can change it right?
Here’s my latest drawing: Soul Star and the Stellar Gateway. These are based off the 12 chakra system according to Katrina Raphaell in her book The Crystal Transmission.