I shared this on @crystalhealerla IG: me practicing how to write magical & heart symbols in the air using the Write On effect in Adobe Premiere.
The Pentacle is the name of the 5 pointed star enclosed within a circle, while the Pentagram is the name of the 5 pointed star itself.
Witches and pagans use this symbol for blessings, protection and sending light. It is not a symbol of evil.
I posted this sketch to my @crystalhealerla account on Instagram, but I really like how it turned out so I’m sharing it here as well.
I’m thankful that I have 2 sketchbooks to fill for The Sketchbook Project – it gives me something to do and gets the creative current flowing. On top of this, I’ve been attempting to write for 20 minutes a day uninterrupted – during work days I can only get in less than 10 minutes. It’s better than nothing.
As usual, I have no direction with my career goals. For practical reasons, I think I should just choose the Web Development route because I wouldn’t need to upgrade my computer. If I choose motion graphics / video editing, then I would have to get a newer iMac. And right now, I’m starting to hate being a jack-of-all-trades, only knowing a little bit of everything. I shouldn’t feel stuck, but I am. I’m also trying to pay down my debt first, then have an emergency fund, then invest. Trying to keep my creativity a top priority while adulting can be a fucking challenge…there’s always something to do or something to think about.
I’ve been minding my business a lot on the internet, not scrolling as much on IG. In my own world mostly, forever scheming on how I can create financial freedom even while I work. Again, it goes back to paying down debt, then saving, then investing.
I am missing my friend, Roxy. I know she would’ve banged out some rad sketches for The Sketchbook Project. She would’ve also been excited and cheering me on when I’d post my sketches on IG. Sigh????
I’m just writing this based on personal experience. I’m writing this because I’ve had a couple of experiences recently that felt like spirit communication. It happened with two people that I love who have passed on from their physical bodies: my mom and my best friend, Roxy.
Spirit communication sounds scary, but it really doesn’t have to be. Remember, we are all spirits too – energy with a consciousness – it just so happens that we are still in our physical bodies.
As some of you may know, I’ve been developing my psychic abilities. And in order to become psychic, you must learn to meditate.
The book I’m reading suggests that you can meditate with music to engage psychic visions, and so that’s exactly what I did: play a particular piece of music that that person loved when they were still around.
I want to mention that on both occasions, I wasn’t expecting it to happen. But it did.
When I did it playing Moonlight Sonata, my mom came through.
When I did it playing Lana Del Rey’s ‘Young and Beautiful’, Roxy came through.
So how do I know it’s real? It was real because I was crying uncontrollably. If you have a strong emotional bond with that person, then you will know that it’s real.
Another way to know it’s real is when you can see it with your third eye, when you are able to describe details – what the person is wearing, where you are at and what is happening. It’s similar to dreaming, except you are conscious and aware.
I also want to mention that the spirit of the person may not talk to you directly, but send you a psychic message. Or they may not say anything to you at all but communicate with you visually. You might feel scared at first – since in the spiritual realm anything goes, you will see more than you anticipated, forcing you to face your own fears and old beliefs.
So before you try this on your own, make sure you are spiritually grounded and have some experience meditating; yes, you will feel strong emotions like I did (especially if the person just recently died), but be sure to remain present meaning you have to have one foot in your physical reality while you’re in the spirit realm. Say a prayer before you begin, asking for guidance & protection. This is different from a regular meditation in that you are actually seeing with your mind’s eye and interacting with the spirit.
I keep this blog, this website, this identity because I feel safe here. I feel less restricted in being able to say what I want to say and not have to dumb it down or make it less weird for everyone else. This is me talking to me.
I have separate accounts and separate aliases because you can’t lump yourself into one thing, at least in my opinion. You have to put yourself into categories that are digestible for people. From a metaphysical perspective, this is how Consciousness manifests itself – it is One thing broken up into a billion pieces, experiencing itself. That is us, that is what we do.
Anyway, here is my latest drawing for Inktober 2019. The prompt is: ring. I really like how it turned out. Instead of being hard on myself for not drawing on a regular basis, I am learning to appreciate my sporadic moments where I am motivated and can create something that I like.
At this point, I don’t care if other people like it anymore.
Believing in something or believing in absolutely nothing.
It’s a 50/50 chance.
Being right or being wrong, it’s a 50/50 chance.
The crystals & stones may or may not have any healing properties at all. It really was just you all along, healing yourself. It’s a 50/50 chance.
Astrologers versus astronomers.
Metaphysicians versus scientists.
Meat eaters versus vegans.
Round Earth vs Flat Earth.
It’s a 50/50 chance.
It’s hard to say who’s right and who’s wrong these days. I feel as if I’ve been oscillating between my own beliefs and then questioning them lately.
Even Flat Earthers can be convincing. So just pick something and stick with it. Believe in all your heart and soul that it’s right and true for YOU at this moment. Don’t worry about everyone else and don’t let anyone shame you for it either.
Of course you are allowed to change your mind.
So many people want to give you advice and tell you what to do. It can be overwhelming and irritating especially when you didn’t fucking ask.
If none of it makes sense anymore, then just pick yourself. Be an expert on you. Take advice from your Self, as it always knows what to do next. Even when you get a tarot reading from somebody else and they tell you what they see from the cards, deep down you already kinda know what’s going on with you, right?
You know who you are, and I know who I am.
I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free.
I better write this down before I forget:
Do you know how humans work the internet for their purposes?
You have multiple social media accounts – one for each version of yourself; one for personal, one for work or business or a side project; one to lurk on other people, one for your pet, etc.
But you are still the same person operating those different accounts. Same with a business that has multiple DBAs (Doing Business As)
On a universal scale, it is the same with Source. Source has so many ♾ infinite ♾ versions of Itself, but it is still the same Source.
As above, so below. As within, so without.
Also sidenote: I’m losing interest in working with regular Tarot cards, particularly Rider Waite. I want Tarot cards that have no people in it. Especially since ethnicity & diversity are lacking in a lot of these decks. If anything, I’d rather work with symbols, planets, nature, sacred geometry.
A lot of things are becoming outdated.
The above image is my light language codes.
It brings me so much joy and pleasure to witness someone experience a healing of some sort, even more so when I don’t have any expectations of the outcome. Energy work is real and I am so thankful to have the perfect clients, I look forward to having more of these experiences in 2019. I am memorizing this blissful feeling and encoding it into my DNA. Or perhaps I have always known how to do this in a past life perhaps (a client mentioned this to me before), I had just forgotten and am barely remembering it now in this life.
Of course it hurts me to see people in pain; a part of me wants to cry along with them but at the same time I get to learn how to help them transmute this pain, which simply is energy.
This time around, the person receiving the healing and myself saw colors. We literally saw the same colors – pinks & reds – when I was chelating around her heart chakra.
On Saturday, I also activated my Light Language codes. Oddly enough I had been drawing these symbols repetitively for the last few months long before I even knew what LL was, not realizing that these would be MY codes. How wonderful and so very synchronistic.
I was also able to activate verbal, written & movement LL codes, which surprised me even more because I was not expecting it, especially the verbal part.
Anyways, I am pretty excited about where my life is headed right now. I still don’t know what direction I’m going in anymore, but as long as I follow my true interests, my intuition will guide me.
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I drew this today (Monday, November 5 2018).
I’m here, trying to just be and go with the flow. I once saw someone on Twitter tweet this out: “only dead fish go with the flow”.
So as usual, I’m conflicted.
Like, how do we just go with the flow if we are conscious beings, when we’re wired a certain way. It really takes effort to reprogram our minds and to find balance between wanting stuff to happen already versus allowing it to come to you.
I want so many things, but mostly I want to learn everything that fascinates me.
Right now I have a list of things I want to learn or make my way towards:
Light Language
Medical Intuitive
Holistic Life Coach
Quantum Healing Hypnosis
Transpersonal Psychology
I’ve also been considering going into Massage Therapy but then again I’m not sure whether I’m ready to touch people…I’m still thinking about it though.
I don’t know. I want to focus on one thing and get really good at it. But it also feels like I need to do other things too. Why? Selling minerals is cool but tbh, I’m already losing interest in it. Perhaps I was a bit naive in thinking that I was always going to make consistent sales, but not only that – selling gets boring after a while. I feel that I also made some poor decisions and spent more than I made. Lesson learned, I guess.
My intuition is leading me to a consciousness upgrade, it seems. It wants me to learn all this stuff that I’ve never even considered wanting to get into.
So here I am again, wondering where my life is going next. I honestly don’t know anymore. This is what wanted to come out today while drawing.
I must warn you now: this shit’s going to be weird and might freak you out but yes I’m going there because A) this is my blog and B) it’s all I’ve been thinking about these last few days and I needed an answer to my question:
Is Reiki another form of manipulation, is it part of the false light agenda?
These questions came up for me recently as I browsed on Instagram and saw that some healers have had their Reiki symbols removed; claiming that Reiki is another part of the Reptilian agenda to manipulate people who are spiritual.
What the fucking fuck.
I’ve been attuned to Reiki levels I and II in Usui method so of course this freaked me the fuck out and needed to know right away if I had just taken on some form of reptilian mind control.
The short answer is: no. But still, it took almost 5 days to find an answer that I’m partially satisfied with and on the first day of discovering this – my anxiety levels were rising and it felt real. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I guess it didn’t help that I started reading one of David Icke’s books to try to know more about reptilians, then I started YouTubing shit and learned all about the false light propaganda that is happening amongst us. It was definitely an eye-opener that was part fascination, part anxiety, part everything really.
So anyways, this video sort of gave me some relief but at the same time not really: Reptilian Carrier Wave in Reiki and Possible MK Ultra Connection
The lesson here? Question everything, including your own motives and listen/trust your own intuition. It’s tempting to not question it especially when everyone is doing it. Like right now, there’s so many people getting Reiki attunements, myself included.
Although I haven’t had a negative experience with Reiki, I’m on the fence right now. There were a couple of instances where people compared Reiki systems and a lot of them claimed that the ones they’re getting attuned to are more ‘powerful’.
Something about that puts me off, because the word ‘power’ can be so easily abused. You must ask yourself, why are you getting attuned or why do you want to be a Reiki master? Do you think you will gain more power? What kind of power are we talking about exactly and power over who or what? I thought the whole point of spirituality was to realize/actualize our own power, not look to an outside source.
For example – during attunement we work with an ascended master from an oracle deck. I honestly am not familiar with a lot of these so called ascended masters. Like really though, who are they?
I don’t know. Reptilians seek power and control so is there some subliminal connection there?
As they say around October/November that the veil is thin and entities from other dimensions can enter this one.
So basically this whole thing opened up Pandora’s box and I might have to step away from it all to get clear again. It’s no wonder I kept my Black Tourmaline close to me this whole time.
While driving to work I was holding this Garnet Soapstone (available for purchase) in the photo and got a surge of energy flow through me and my eyes welled up a little…I thought about blood, bloodshed and sacrifice.
In my mind’s eye I got a flash of witches being accused and persecuted. Perhaps these were just mental pictures from witch-related movies I’ve seen, I wasn’t sure. But it was enough to make me feel something and to write this down.
Anyways.
In terms of sacrifice, often times we think about veterans who were in the war, but what about the thousands of innocent witches, healers who were burned at the stakes…
What about the countless women who were raped past, present and future…
It was brought to my awareness recently that James Marion Sims, the father of modern Gynecology, owned black slave women and cut them up without anesthesia in order to study and learn about our reproductive organs.
The history of mankind is gruesome and it was the women who usually suffered the most.
They all sacrificed themselves to have what we have today.
All these women live through me and they exist as little druzy sparkles in this Garnet Soapstone. Garnet is all about strength and security. I am you, you are me, we are One. Now whenever I look at Almandine Garnets I will always think about all the blood that has been shed and seeped through the earth to create such a beautiful stone.
I cursed myself often, often wishing I was a man instead. They always seemed to get away with doing things. It took some time to love my body and accept myself as a woman.
I used to be angry that my period would inconvenience me, it’s actually happening right now and I think it’s perfect for writing this post.❤️
