In the Pursuit of Healing and the Unknown
Posted on May 1, 2018
If you’ve been reading this blog, you’ve probably heard me say this often:
I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
And it’s quite true.
I don’t know why I keep pursuing certain things; I don’t know why I am interested in wanting to learn Reiki, Crystal Healing and other healing modalities…or why I even decided to sell crystals and stones. I feel like I’m not the type, yet on the contrary here I am. The fantasy I had a year ago became a full blown reality; having an online business is expensive af, I imagine having a brick and mortar would be even more. I still really love the crystals though, the ones who are sitting in my home have brought so much good to my life.
Sales have been slow last month but that’s fine; I’m learning to trust the ebb and flow.
A lot of things don’t make sense to me right now, but again I’m going to trust it.
It would be a lot more practical of me to take more classes in computer programming, marketing, design, motion graphics, etc. More classes related to my work to stay competitive or whatever; keep up with everyone else and make more $$$…
But I’m just not into it right now. Yeah I love money, I mean who doesn’t? But I’m not into hustling or chasing money.
I’ve also been noticing recently that employers don’t pay people as much for being skilled. If anything, people are being laid off for being highly skilled AND making too much.
Things are always changing, even faster now it seems.
On the upside, I feel completely at peace. I am happy for no reason.
If you also know me from the past, you know that I lived within my ego. And while it had its highs, a lot of it was low vibrational.
What are people going to remember you for, really?
I can look back and say I was a low vibrational human being. Lol! I guess if you want to insult somebody you can start calling them a “low vibrational being”. They would probably be confused by that, or not. Try it and report back 😉
Anyways, so that’s what’s been going on with me.
We’re all evolving and becoming one with our Selves, one with the Higher Consciousness.
If you’re reading this, I hope you are doing what feels good and right for you…even if it doesn’t make sense! I feel as I will probably have less friends after this round. You will look back and then it will all make sense. Trust yourself, everything will be fine.
All my love to you.❤
[I made this drawing today to go with my blog post and turned it into an animated gif again. Sorry (not sorry), all I seem to draw are pyramids, stars and eyes now. I’m boring I know and I don’t care. Artists are SO full of themselves, aren’t they? I don’t even know who is reading my blog tbh, so.]