I now know what it is…for now at least. I’ve been sitting on this for about 2 months now, just to make sure it was still true.
I have this job, this resource so that not only can I support me and my family, I can also give back to my spiritual community – whether it’s supporting them through donations, signing up for their classes, or just supporting their small business in general.
For so long it seems I was never satisfied with where I was. I wanted so bad to quit my job and create my own shit – I’m actually still doing that but I’ve learned that it’s a much longer process. It takes time and money and so I must be patient and have perseverance while I continue to build it.
What I realized now after spending all this time ‘doing the work’ is that – I am where I’m supposed to be.
I am where I’m supposed to be.
Let that sink in.
Once I stopped struggling – complaining & fighting myself internally – and accepted where I am, everything fell into place.
I feel at peace with the work I do now, you can even say that I’ve mastered it. I know when I get my paycheck I can pay all my bills and still have enough to support others as well.
I’m currently reading “Existential Kink” by Carolyn Elliott. Though I am already familiar with a lot of the stuff she talks about in her book, I feel like there are some things I’ve missed or wasn’t fully aware of (like the unconscious) and could work on.
A magician must always seek to improve and perfect their craft.